Wednesday, July 4, 2012

LOST


LOST

I went to Camp Ellis this morning as the sun was coming up, I  see the sun rise in the morning and it tells me that I have been blessed to see another day and that I have a purpose that needs to be completed. Each day that I have seen the sunrise I always think that the beautiful colors that I am seeing were put there by my mother for me. I lost my mother 33 years ago and I miss her very much. I have missed her more this year than ever because of the challenges that I have faced and needed to talk with her to tell me that I was doing the right thing and everything would be fine in the end. Well this morning as I sat on the rocks and watched the sun peek over the ocean I just sat there, listened to the sea gulls, boats going out, and the waves gently lapping at the rocks and shore I lost myself in the moment, I could not see anything but the vibrate colors of the day. I thought this is the most beautiful morning of my life. I watched the sea gulls as they flew around looking for breakfast and every now and then one would fly by as I was focusing in on the soft pinks and blues in the sky and it would get into the photo. When I would view it on my camera the gull appeared to be ghost like and I thought mom is telling me something. I took more photos after putting them on my computer they turned out beautiful, I knew what my purpose was for the day, show others this beauty. But I could not help but get lost in the photos all over again.  This is the kind of lost I like, as long as I have this kind of beauty to see I want to be lost more.












Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Don't Give up

Don't Give up

It will soon be three years since the Allstate office in South Portland closed and I chose to continue to work on my studies and building my photography business instead of going to find another job. Those years studying and not doing the things I would like to do like go see my son, Jereme Lamb, and grand daughter, Sierra Lamb in Texas, I set my mind to making the grades and graduate from college . However,it was hard, I wanted to scream some days and other days it seemed as if nothing could go wrong. Each year in the Small Business Group, at SMCC, those of us that are in the incubator program, would write our goals for the year down on paper and they would hang on the wall for everyone to see. Each day that I came to class I saw my goals and on that list was to graduate. The days I would walk in the office and my stuggles seemed to just get higher and higher, I saw my goals and said, "I AM GOING TO DO THIS. I WILL GRADUATE!" Now I have reached that goal and now I have to find new business and find a way to support myself. I am looking for a job and still taking my photos. Yesterday, I took my camera and went for a walk. I have searched and searched, and sent out many resumes with only one interview so far. On my walk I went to the little park on the island where the Saco River rushes by and the sound of the river was calming. The flowers seemed to be like me wilted, and I kneeled down and began to snap away. After I got the photos on my computer I began to feel better. Here are my photos from that walk and destressing. I have to continue to reach the next goal of landing a job, be it a photo shoot, or working in someone's office but when I begin to feel like throwing in the towel, I get the camera.  I hope you enjoy the photos I post and thank you for taking the time to read my journey.





















Friday, June 8, 2012

"Incredible"



When I am having a bad day with nothing going the way I want it to and  to get me out of the mood, I will get my camera and take photos. Then when I share them with my BBFF (Beautiful Best Friend Forever) hoping that they are ok I receive a reply with the word like "incredible" the mood disappears. Thank you my BBFF.  Everyone have an awesome day and weekend.